"Yeah, I don't call this the "leaning tree" babe, I call it the "killer whale!". LMAO
Yeah. Everytime I even think about breaking down and eating something amazingly yummy and bad I remember those pics. The good news is I'm not really craving anything bad, I'm craving those Arizona Juices with the watermelon on the front. Yummmm!
I did break down the other day though. I forgot my lunch because I rushed out the door to work. It was pay day so I thought why not go to BurgerKing since the co-worker across from me was talking about it. I go half way through my onion rings before I realized I was full.. and I hadn't even touch my sandwhich. Good. Also, after eating healthy, I realized the fast food was bland.
Weigh in is this Friday. We'll see.
In 2009, I lost alot of weight and got really fit and toned (even ventured taking naughty pics for a guy I was dating, which I never done before.) But then I went through some shitty things this last 2 years and ended up gaining not only some weight back but kinda alot.
*bummer* so now I'm making changes and going back to my eating clean lifestyle. The funny thing with this blog is that I researched enemas and colon cleansing which helps you ingest more nutrients. Yeah, I really am going to blog about my first self- attempted enema or "colon cleansing". LOL. since I'm going to school for Nursing anyway, I might as well embarrass myself first, right?
So I'll put the # out there. You know, the embarrassing number no woman in her right mind would admit to weighing. I am 5'9" and I topped out at 224 lbs. The heaviest I've ever weight in my life. I've made a few changes like no smoke, cut back on soda, eating only healthy whole foods and now I'm 214 lbs.
Yes 10 whole pounds! Hell yes, but I got a weighs to go. My bone structure is actually small for my height so I should be weighing between 135-140 lbs. That's my overall target. So hopefully I'll post pics on here and you guys, and ME, can see my progress.
Week 1: I am focusing on smaller portions and eating healthier. Result: I'm "starving" and wanting to eat everything in sight. However, toward the end of this week, I'm not really craving anything "bad".
I read again where I met someone I fell inlove with once, someone I'll never forget who taught me much and held a bittersweet place in my heart, never to be re-lived again. Best left in the past. I read through all the things that I lived through and delt with... I won't delete it. I think I will leave it, always to remember where I've been... but the writings and girl behind them will always be different.
Okay, for all of you who read my blog or read it, this is why I am not in SLC and this is what happened. Okay, I flew to SLC to go live with my cousin, her boyfriend, and two other guys in the house. My cousin's boyfriend's mom wasn't living there anymore cause she got kicked out for trying to hurt my cousin, she's really physco, his mom, she's a bitch, and for not paying rent and stuff. So I was supposed to get the basement all to myself. Well, I get there and Nick who was so nice over the phone is really a sexist asshole who happened to be a trust fund baby but is now going broke. He spent all his money on stuff he didn't need when he was 16 and will eat out but refuses to go grocery shopping, he gained alot of weight and then complains about it. So whenever I would shop for groceries with what little money I had they would all eat my food and I'd have NONE!.
My cousin's boyfriend's mom got kicked out of her boyfriend's house. Apparently, she tried to hit him and he threw her over the fucking balcony. LOLOLOLOL! LMFAO! So in the middle of the night she moves into Nicks house and into my room without asking me, and I"M paying the damned rent, not her. Nick said if anyone had to share a room with anyone that they would split the rent and so I asked him. He said that no, I would pay all the rent or else I would not have equal run of the house, what bullshit!!! And his mom fucking stole my bed, that was MINE. So here I'm stuck with her, and she's a blackwitch, meaning she doesn't study good magic, just the bad stuff. So I cleansed my crystals and then put salt water on all her stuff, I sprinkled it, which makes it so she can not hurt anyone. Well Nick is a control freak and he sends my cousin out at fucking 2 in the morning to get his fatass cinnamon rolls, and when we come back the dogs shat on the floor in the basement and he tells my cousin to clean it up. She ALWAYS takes care of the dogs and tells him to clean it up for once and he doesn't, then shouts that if they ever have kids he will not change the diapers and so she cleans it up but the smell is so bad she takes a break and goes to her mom's house. Nick's mom rants and raves and bashes my cousin and then starts cleaning what's left. When I come down she asks me where Elise went and I say that Ellise needed a break and when to my aunts. She thinks that I am defended Elise and starts cussing me out and yelling and screaming at me. I could so beat this woman to pulp. I'm 5'9 and she is 5'2 or whatever. Yeah, I would so win. So I leave and go to my aunt's house cause if I hit her I would not fucking stop til she was dead. Then I come back the next morning and get my shit all packed up. Nick's mom asked where I went and said that I didn't need to run away and that she didn't mean to yell at me BUT ... and that's when I stopped listening and toldher to shut the fuck up and got ALL my stuff and then told Elise to take me to my grandparents house. I hate Nick and his bitch of a mother and I'm not gonna spend my money and time on them because it's not worth it. Let the little shit go broke and live on the street. I love myself way too much for that bullshit.
So since then I've been working at a clothing store, for a bitch who doens't complement her employee's worth shit, paying for phone and taking care of my granny and sleeping ont he couch. Well I finally come to Canada to see my boyfriend and didn't bring a passport or birth certificate because I was told I didn't need one and turned out I did. So I have to wait for it to get back into the states. OH yeah, and before I left my cousin calls me to ask if I'll move back into the house. The other two room mates moved out and they need another person. Oh and that if I move back in the rent will be higher than before. BULLSHIT!!!! I wasn't even allowed to talk to my cousin because of Nicka nd I sure as hell would love to see him go broke and have to work for once. He's 18 and has never worked in his life, still calls his mom "mommy" and she actually brings him his food and drink. OMG!! LOL!! Yeah, so that's what happened, what do you think? BTW my New BLOG NAME is BlueOrchid69 and I might stop using this one so write me on that one. Thankz, love all of you and I missed you like crazy!!!
So I'm eating cheetos right now while reading your guys's blogs and seeing what's going on in your lives to know that I'm not the only one who has messes. *munchmunchmunch* Thanks for all of you who right comments to make me feel better, it goes a long way.
Well, this Monday is when I'm going to fly out to SLC. Yup, I'm excited and tomarrow I have to test pack my clothes to see how much I can fit along with extras that I wanna take. I'm not gonna pack all of my clothes bc my mom offered to ship what I don't want with me yet. It's not cold there so I'm not desperate for winterclothes.
This hurricane sucked. I mean, I told everyone it'd turn into a pussy tropical storm by the time it got here and it did. It skimmed right by E-prise and headed right on up. I'm not sad though, because I didn't want to deal with it when I had to fly. I'm happy for the rain though, bc it was so fucking hot here I thought the humidity was gonna steam me- one thing I'm so not gonna miss when I move.
Well that's all for now, stay tuned for Tahnee's version of: The Real World: SLC!! yes that's right folks, follow the life of Tahnee as she learns to live with 4 potheads in one house and see what drama arises! lol
